Insomnia

Lately I have been staying up way too late!  Currently this is ok seeing as it is spring break, meaning I can sleep in a little.  What is spring break without a little sleeping in??  But you see, spring break is practically over and I see no change in my sleep schedule! I am making myself extremely nervous for the first week back to school.  I have the worst problem with sleeping in-- classes or no classes.  There are only 6 more weeks left of the semester so it is even more important than ever to be taking school seriously.  I refuse to let my grades drop with such a short amount of time left!  Look at me.. I'm rambling, something that comes along with being awake so late! Bottom line: I hope I'm able to fall asleep early Sunday night.
Spring break has been pretty blah.  Which makes for a pretty typical Caitlin Ballard spring break.  I hear of all these people going on fun, exciting vacations every year, and every year what am I doing? Working 50 hours to make up for all the other employees who requested that week off. I realize I am probably sounding like a debbie downer but, I'm really not trying to sound that way! You see, I choose to stay at home and work.  I just don't have enough money to go on fun vacations and if I did I'd be stressing about a weeks worth of no paycheck. (I think I might be a workaholic... ) Every year I think to myself "next year I'll do something fun" So i'm keeping my fingers crossed for next year to be that year! :)
Although I have worked a ton i've still been able to have a little fun here and there.  If i'm not at work I'll be visiting Derick at work.  If Derick isn't at work he'll be visiting me at work.  And for the couple of hours a day neither one of us are at work we are hanging out with each other.  So that has been great!
A couple of blog posts ago I said if I had known how things would turn out I don't think I would have been so sad to see Derick leave for 2 years.  Well tonight while we were watching a movie together I was thinking the exact opposite.  I felt so overwhelmed by how relieved I was that he was back home.  Lately every time I think about him being on his mission I start feeling emotional, and feeling sorry for myself during those 2 years. Then I ask myself the same question "how did I survive??"  It is so weird because we are on completely different pages.  He misses his mission a lot .  He would do it again in a heartbeat, but saying this while trying to be as supportive as possible... I am so happy he is home! I will gladly go visit his mission with him anytime he wants, but I don't want to give him away ever again.  haha. I really feel for every girl out there who is currently waiting for a missionary! It was such a great experience, I would not have changed any of it for the world, and I mean that. But at the same time it was so hard, and i'm sure every girl is different, but for me I don't think I realized exactly how hard it was until he came home. Not  until I realized exactly what I was missing during those two years.
Well, here is a small glimpse at what my spring break has been like!

Keeping me company at work

Picnic time!

Visiting me at work, once again.  Sometimes he tries
REALLY hard to be stylish. 

Derick and I are going to take a mini "vacation" and visit his grandpa in Idaho for the rest of the weekend.  That is as exciting as this spring break is going to get for me! Hopefully it is as fun as I think it will be;) I'll post about it later!