You know how you can go years without hearing a song, and then when you hear it again emotions and memories associated with that song hit you like a brick wall? This happened to me yesterday, except I had never actually heard the song before. I was studying in the library, minding my own business, listening to pandora, and all of a sudden I got the feeling like I had just run into that brick wall. I was overwhelmed with emotions. I knew I hadn't ever heard the song before so I was wondering what could possibly be wrong with me. The lyrics were oddly familiar... and then it hit me. Derick had been gone serving his LDS mission for 2 whole months when he had sent me the lyrics to this song. When I received the letter the thought to actually look up the song never occurred to me, but I did read the letter over, and over, and over again. It was crazy how this song brought back all the heart ache I had while he was gone. Looking back on it now those 2 years feel like nothing but a very, very vague dream. But that song brought back those emotions for a few minutes. When I got home I went straight upstairs and pulled out our letters, knowing exactly what I was searching for. I quickly found the letter and just stared at it. This was the letter that brought back all those emotions while I was sitting in the library trying to mind my own business....
"Caitlin,
This is so hard to explain, and don't think i'm weird, but on thursday & Friday I felt like you were with me. It was the best feeling ever! from the moment I woke up I felt like I woke up next to you, and then that feeling stuck with me the entire day.. I just felt like I was with you on Thursday and on Friday. I loved it. But then of course reality hit me & I realize that we are so far away from each other for so long... I don't know how I'm surviving without you. We were attached to the hip before I left. For a year and a half. Crazy. Well anyway here are some lyrics that remind me of you:
Caitlin these lyrics remind me of you, well of us I guess you could say. We are always there for each other and we have each others backs. And when we aren't there for each other... well then things go hazy."
We tried to refrain from sending each other mushy gushy letters as much as we could help it. But when I did get a letter from him that described exactly how he felt about me it was the best. Especially when I was feeling a little "Derick Sick" And now this song is currently my favorite and I am a little upset at myself for not listening to it sooner.
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Without you things go....
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