The Proposal.

Yesterday was the day I have been dreaming of for 6 whole years.  It was a little over 6 years ago when I first developed a major crush on Derick, and secretly dreamed of what it would be like to,  not be engaged to him, but just to be in a relationship with him! If I had told my little sophomore self that 6 years ahead on May 11th I would get engaged to Derick Kenneth Cox I don't know if I would had allowed myself to believe it, all because the little saying "if it sounds too good to be true, it probably is" How wrong that statement is.


Yesterday started off like any other ordinary day.  I woke up dreading having to work during the day, but looking forward to the date I had with Derick that night.  I was scheduled to get off work at 5 and told Derick he could come pick me up at 5:45.  Derick and I didn't text too much through out the day.  This was a little unordinary but I didn't think much of it because my work was really busy and I figured If i didn't have time to text him he didn't have to text me either.  The few texts we did send each other were short and brief, mostly me asking him what he was doing with his day off.  His responses were "laundry" "went to Janell's" (his sister) "hanging out with my friends". So on and so forth.  The first "fishy" thing that happened was when my boss asked me if I knew why Derick had texted him asking if he was going to be at pita pit that night.  I said that I didn't and continued on with my work not thinking a whole lot about it.  A couple of seconds later my boss called Derick to see what was going on.  They started talking about soccer and derick being my boss's assistant soccer coach.  Old news.  I had already known this was possibly going down for some time.  A little random though.  A few minutes later Zac (my boss) went outside and was talking on the phone.  He came back inside and asked me if I could stay half an hour late and the conversation goes as follows:
Zac: Can you stay half an hour late?
Me: I can't
Zac: Ok, I need you to stay a half an hour late
Me: I really can't I have stuff going on.
Zac: No, I really need you to stay an extra half an hour
(beginning to think.... hmmm something is definitely going on)
Me: Why?
Zac: I can't tell you
Me: why can't you tell me?
(conversation goes on like this for a couple more minutes) It pretty much ended with Zac saying "you are mad at me now but you will thank me later." Now something to know: My boss is not the type to tell any of his employees they have to do something.  Especially when it comes to staying late.  If we had said we couldn't stay, he would have said "alright" and moved on with his life.  And he never tells us, he asks.  So, when he told me I had to stay late, I knew something was up.  I thought I knew what was going on.  Getting married to Derick this summer has always been an idea in my head.  Even before he left on his mission I always imagined this summer would be the one. It is May, meaning a short 3 month long engagement would land us in August--last month of summer vacation.  Derick had even told me a few days earlier that he wanted it to happen this summer.  So I, of course, was looking for any sign of a possible proposal.  Red flags were flying high. Well red technically means warning signs.. I'd say Yellow flags were flying high. for "excitement is a-brewin'"
Zac left a little before 5, and Claressa came in to take his spot.  I told her I had to stay late and she questioned me as to why. I couldn't explain it to her. There was absolutely no need for me to be there.  I ended up leaving 5:11 -- 19 minutes early.  I drove home and absolutely nothing was out of the ordinary. I was a little bummed.  If Derick was the reason for me staying late I would think it would be because he was doing something at my house. But nope, nothing.  He came and picked me up for our date.  Acted just as weirded out as me by Zac's strange behavior.  Neither of us could figure out why I needed to stay late!    We headed out to Belle Monte, a fancy restaurant up at Sherwood Hills Resort.


 I knew he wouldn't propose during dinner but I still had my fingers crossed for it happening that night.  We then went on a little hike right by the restaurant.   Could this be it?


 We got to the point where we decided we would start heading back.  Derick abruptly got down on one knee, while my stomach did a funny flip as soon as he got on his knee he said "hold on have to tie my shoe" Calm down, just tying his shoe "Hold on there is something in my shoe"(as he reaches his finger in his shoe) oh my gosh, is the ring in there? But, no ring. We finished our hike and started heading back into the valley.
As we were driving back he told me that was all the plans he had for our date and asked me what I would like to do next.  I was bummed.  Clearly, if I was now in control of the night there is no way the proposal would be happening.  Hopefully someday soon. I thought to myself.  I didn't show I was bummed and decided we would go to his parents house to watch a movie.  He just recently moved out and I hadn't been over to his parents house since then, and I missed going over there.  We watched the 2nd Iron man.  Well, Derick watched it while I slept.  Derick told me since he had to work early in the morning we probably shouldn't have too late of a night.  Maybe 11:30 at the latest.  I was fine with this because I knew we were both really tired.   11:10 rolls around and Derick suddenly goes "Well! Ready to go?" we both got up and left.. a lot faster than usual.  We usually drag out the end of the night as looong as possible. Strangely I didn't think anything of it.

The drive home is what really threw me off.  We were about 4 minutes into our 12 minute drive when Derick turned down the music and said "Let's talk" I asked him what he wanted to talk about and he started going off about how he wants to marry me, but the thought still freaks him out a little.  He didn't think he would be able to afford the ring, he didn't think he could live up to my brother in-laws proposals because they were all so cool.  He asked me what my dream proposal would be and I refused to tell him. all I said was "if it comes from the heart then it will be just as special for me"  I thought the whole conversation was weird and confusing.  There I was going into the night thinking we were so close to moving onto the next step of our lives and within 2 minutes we were all of a sudden back to square one.  Derick acting like if we were to get married it still wouldn't be for a while because he just "was not ready" All I knew from the conversation was 1. He still did not have a ring.. or even an idea of how much a ring costs. and 2. he had no idea how he was going to propose to me when the time finally came.

We pulled up into my driveway and he said he had a really good night and he didn't want it to end.  He suggested we go on a walk and asked me where a good place to walk would be.  I didn't have any idea so he said "remember that walk we went on a few sunday's ago around your farm? That was fun... Do you want to walk there?" I agreed so we started walking.  He kept stopping to hug me which I thought was cute.  We turned a corner and saw lights on in a shed through the window.  He asked me if my dad was working.  "Why would my dad be working at 11:30 at night?" was my response.  We keep walking and turn another corner to another view of the shed and suddenly I knew exactly what was going on.  There were a bunch of lights hung from the rafters and as we neared closer Evan Hyde (Derick's friend) popped up and started playing the guitar and singing a song.  The rest is on this video:) As I was watching this I thought I didn't seem very excited.  So, just so you all know the freak outs started happening more towards the end and after the video.  For the first few minutes I was just in complete shock!!!! 
After we had our moment I turned around and saw Derick's family and my sister along with some of his friends, all capturing the moment.  I am so glad this was done! One of the top things I always wanted for my proposal was documentation of it happening.  It was so great to have our loved ones there with us!! After the shock wore down a little we ran back to my house to share the good news with my parents! (they already knew, Derick had asked for their blessing that day.  He had actually let slip during dinner that he had told my parents something that day.  I drilled him with questions on why he was talking to my parents. He came up with a quick not-so-good cover up story and  told me I ask too many questions. Let's just say the atmosphere was pretty tense/awkward for a few minutes)









My sister Jillian, and Josh then came over and I had some more freak outs with my family for awhile.


I could not have asked for a better night.  It was absolutely perfect.  I have learned time and time again to never underestimate Derick but yet, I am always left in complete shock with how well he does things!  He did so good!
I am getting Married!!!!! I have been on cloud 9 all day and I have a feeling this is going to stay with me for a long, long time.  I can't believe I am finally marrying my sophomore and junior year crush/ my high school sweetheart/ my missionary/ my best friend/ my other half. I cannot wait to spend my life and eternity with him! 
I've gotta admit.. It was weird waking up with this beautiful thing on my finger!
  
Now it is time for the wedding planning to begin!!

Location Background: Derick definitely knew what he was doing when he planned out this proposal.  I had taken him on a walk around the farm I grew up on a few weeks earlier.  The very barn he proposed to me in, was one I had specifically taken him to, to tell him about all of the many childhood memories I had in there.  The barn was my grandpa's tractor shed, and his work space.  I can't say how many countless hours I had spent in there as a child.  Now, not only does it hold childhood memories, but it holds my proposal.  

The ring:  Derick has always said the guy is the one who is supposed to pick out the ring for the girl.  This idea made me a little nervous, because I definitely wanted the thing I'd be wearing for the rest of my life to be something I liked, but he did amazing.  Not only did he pick out the ring, he designed it himself.  He just so happened to know someone from his mission who makes rings, so he went through him to design it. I love that he picked out the design all by himself.  I honestly can say, it has so much more meaning to me now.  And if I had picked it out, I can guarantee it would not have been as beautiful. 

Random Fact: Derick was originally going to propose to me on April 1st (April fools day) Luckily, that plan fell through. The sad thing? On April Fools day I sat on the edge of my chair waiting for him to propose.  I guess I know his style a little too well. I'm glad he actually took me by surprise:) 

p.s. The mystery of me having to stay late at work was solved.  They were setting up at the farm and Derick was worried it would run late.  I never go to the farm but Derick was worried I might "stumble" over there and ruin the surprise.  He called my boss, asked him if he was standing next to me and if I was to respond with things talking about soccer.  The phone conversation on the other end was completely different from what I was hearing.  Zac had told Claressa what was going on and she was left in charge of keeping me there since Zac had to leave. Well, neither Zac or Claressa did too good at keeping me there for an extra half an hour but the surprise was not ruined:)

How Great Thou Art

Today we sang this song in Sacrament meeting.  This is probably my favorite church hymn.  Every single time I hear it I can feel the spirit so strong.
Here is a video of Carrie Underwood singing it.  Truly amazing.  She has such a powerful voice she had people in tears, some of who may not even believe in God.  Music is such a great way to spread a message around the world.




Summer Goals

Almost everyone always has New Years Resolutions, but I have season resolutions.  It seems at the beginning of every school semester,  new year, or every summer vacation I always set some sort of goals for myself. Most of the time I fail at accomplishing these goals, but sometimes I do great.  This summer I am hoping to accomplish every single one of my goals:) 
1. Become better at blogging
2. Work out every single day. 
3. Eat healthier
4. Enjoy nature more (i.e. hiking, boating, swimming, backpacking, running outside, biking. Everything)
5. Don't spend so much money on eating out! (already failing at this goal... )
6. Read at least 20 books
7. Engage in activities that help my Testimony grow
8. Work on strengthening all of my friendships 
9. Become more of a morning person

I could have so many more, but I figure the more goals you have, the more likely you are to not achieving all of them.  I am very serious about all of these goals, and for some reason I am more motivated than ever before.  

Now to talk about my day.
Today was interesting. I can't think of another word to describe it.  I can't say it was good interesting or bad interesting.  It was just interesting.  Let's start at the very beginning when my alarm clock went off.  

My alarm clock woke me from a dream where I was running from murderers.. more like, hiding from them.  Fearing for my life.  I've been having a lot of dreams like this lately and the worst part is, they always feel so real. I have no idea what is causing these dreams! Well anyway, when my alarm clock went off I was so lost and confused.  I had no idea where I was.  When I figured out where I was I had no idea what day it was, or why I was waking up at 8 in the morning. I had to strain so hard to figure out why I was waking up at that time.  I finally remembered I had planned to go to a cycling class with my friend Meghan.  Working out always seems like a good idea the night before, but whenever it is time to wake up I am hating myself for making the plans.  This is why I have set goal #9 for myself.  I am absolutely positively the worst morning person! It doesn't matter what I have going on, and how important it is, whenever I wake up I always convince myself sleep is more important. I can't tell you how many things I have slept through something without it being on "accident" and having to deal with the guilt for the rest of the day. Sleeping through it always seems like a good idea at the time!  Amazingly enough I got out of bed and went to my cycling class.  Already getting a strong start on goals 2,8, & 9.  The cycling class was good ( I am so out of shape!) and it was good to spend some more time with my friend, Meghan. 

 I then went to Derick's and ate breakfast with him.  We both got ready for the day and decided it would be fun to get a bunch of people together to go see The Avengers.  Derick said if I drove he would supply the movie tickets.  I wasn't falling for that trick because he wasn't supplying anything. His mom had given him gift cards to the movie theater.  I told him he should drive since he has a lot of errands he needed to run for himself.   We hopped into his car and I was in sort of a trance not paying attention to much.  I was jerked back to reality by the sound of a very loud smash.  My car! I immediately had known what happened... Derick on the other hand was still a little confused.  For some reason he forgot I was parked behind him, even though I was parked in the same spot I park at every single day when I go to his house.  It took him a second to realize what had happened and when realization finally hit we both got out to view the damage.  My heart sank.. my poor car was pretty beaten up on the front end.   I should have drove....



But it's ok.  I wasn't hard on him and I realized we all make mistakes.  It could happen to anyone.  The only thing I could think of asking him after it happened was "what were you thinking?" after saying that a few times I got over it.  His insurance is going to cover the damage, with only raising his insurance rate a small percentage for a a few years.   And while my car is getting fixed I'll get to drive around a loaner.  As long as it isn't some nasty car I'll be fine.  No stress of not having a car.  Derick texted his friends and told them we wouldn't be able to make it to the movie due to the fender bender, but after calling the insurance agency and sitting there feeling sorry for ourselves for a few minutes we realized we could still make it to the 12:30 showing.  We speed over to the movie theater while calling everyone telling them the plans were back on.  We would be just a few minutes late and hopefully only miss the previews.  Derick and I get there first and go to buy the movie tickets for the current showing.  The lady at the window says "The 12 o'clock showing?" and Derick told her that we actually wanted the 12:30 showing.  Well turns out we were at the wrong movie theater.  There was no way we would make it there in time.  We turn around to walk back to our car as his friends show up.  They ask if the movie is sold out and Derick decides to go with it. "Ya it's sold out!" we didn't want to tell them we had made a mistake (I say we, but let's get real here. Derick is the one who looked up the showings in the newspaper) They would have been so mad.  We decided to go to out to Lunch instead, at Wingers. 

After that Derick and I headed over to Al's to check out hiking shoes and back packs for backpacking trips we hope to go on this summer. 
I then had to go to work.  Work was straight up ridiculous.  I have worked at Pita Pit for about 4 years now, and I don't think I have ever experienced such a steady night.  We could not get anything done! A typical friday night would be getting rotate, sauces, dishes, and trash all done by 9:30.  Well tonight We didn't even get started on any of that until 10:30.   I was a little peeved by this, but the tips were worth it. 
And since today was May 4th (star wars day) My co-worker brought all of the star wars movies to play on the TV while we worked.  And then he made me stay after to finish watching a light saber scene. 
It is now 2:19 and I can't believe I am still awake.  



Schools out for the summer!

Summer Vacation.
Those two words are always my favorite.
I am so relieved that this past semester is finished! It was a good one, but it was definitely my most stressful one so far.  I was taking harder classes, and working more hours than any of my past semesters.  And I was a little distracted since the boy came home from his mission a week and a half before the semester started! It always came down to two options:
A. studying
or
B. Hanging out with Derick
Believe it or not I almost always chose B.  But sometimes I would get lucky and get to study while spending time with him since we both had a class together.   Luckily, I passed all my classes.  I even managed to swing two A's.  I guess I wasn't as distracted as I thought.
I realize I must have been into this semester pretty deep because I have never experienced a weirder feeling than when I was asked what I was doing tonight.  My typical response for when asked what I was doing on a thursday night would be "oh, working, and I have an SI session right after that, maybe I'll be lucky and get to  hang out with Derick for half an hour, and then I have to go home to study, and then I have to go to bed because I have school really early in the morning."  But today my response was "....I... don't know!" I loved the feeling of having no plans, and no set schedule.  I could choose who I wanted to hang out with, how long I wanted to hang out with them, and what I wanted to do.  With no worries of forgotten homework assignments.  This summer comes with a freedom I have never felt before and I love it. :)
I have been on summer vacation for a little over 24 hours now, and I must admit.. It has been a great 24 hours! I can't wait to see what this summer has to offer me.

I feel like these past 4 months went by in kind of a blur, so I would like to reminise a little.
Skiing!


Always on the go..

Jennacy's B-day party

I made Derick my Co-worker for a month while he tried finding
another job. 


Camilia came to visit

Mardi Gras party

attended many concerts

Kinslee turned 3!


"study sessions"



Invested in a gym membership.

Road trips

Mustache march

Derick's nieces were born!

Such a proud big brother

Easter sunday


Many dreaded group projects

My best friend was baptized!

My little sister once again stole the show!

Anberlin Concert

Camilia got married!

Bowling

Fireside

Valentines day

Insomnia

Lately I have been staying up way too late!  Currently this is ok seeing as it is spring break, meaning I can sleep in a little.  What is spring break without a little sleeping in??  But you see, spring break is practically over and I see no change in my sleep schedule! I am making myself extremely nervous for the first week back to school.  I have the worst problem with sleeping in-- classes or no classes.  There are only 6 more weeks left of the semester so it is even more important than ever to be taking school seriously.  I refuse to let my grades drop with such a short amount of time left!  Look at me.. I'm rambling, something that comes along with being awake so late! Bottom line: I hope I'm able to fall asleep early Sunday night.
Spring break has been pretty blah.  Which makes for a pretty typical Caitlin Ballard spring break.  I hear of all these people going on fun, exciting vacations every year, and every year what am I doing? Working 50 hours to make up for all the other employees who requested that week off. I realize I am probably sounding like a debbie downer but, I'm really not trying to sound that way! You see, I choose to stay at home and work.  I just don't have enough money to go on fun vacations and if I did I'd be stressing about a weeks worth of no paycheck. (I think I might be a workaholic... ) Every year I think to myself "next year I'll do something fun" So i'm keeping my fingers crossed for next year to be that year! :)
Although I have worked a ton i've still been able to have a little fun here and there.  If i'm not at work I'll be visiting Derick at work.  If Derick isn't at work he'll be visiting me at work.  And for the couple of hours a day neither one of us are at work we are hanging out with each other.  So that has been great!
A couple of blog posts ago I said if I had known how things would turn out I don't think I would have been so sad to see Derick leave for 2 years.  Well tonight while we were watching a movie together I was thinking the exact opposite.  I felt so overwhelmed by how relieved I was that he was back home.  Lately every time I think about him being on his mission I start feeling emotional, and feeling sorry for myself during those 2 years. Then I ask myself the same question "how did I survive??"  It is so weird because we are on completely different pages.  He misses his mission a lot .  He would do it again in a heartbeat, but saying this while trying to be as supportive as possible... I am so happy he is home! I will gladly go visit his mission with him anytime he wants, but I don't want to give him away ever again.  haha. I really feel for every girl out there who is currently waiting for a missionary! It was such a great experience, I would not have changed any of it for the world, and I mean that. But at the same time it was so hard, and i'm sure every girl is different, but for me I don't think I realized exactly how hard it was until he came home. Not  until I realized exactly what I was missing during those two years.
Well, here is a small glimpse at what my spring break has been like!
Keeping me company at work

Picnic time!


Visiting me at work, once again.  Sometimes he tries
REALLY hard to be stylish. 

Derick and I are going to take a mini "vacation" and visit his grandpa in Idaho for the rest of the weekend.  That is as exciting as this spring break is going to get for me! Hopefully it is as fun as I think it will be;) I'll post about it later!

Disney World


Exactly two years ago I was a scared and lost soul arriving in Orlando, Florida.  I can't believe it has been two whole years!
Doing the Disney college internship had been an idea in my head for a few years since my sister Olivia had done it and raved about how much fun she had doing it.  This idea didn't become reality though until Derick got his mission call.  I became panicked at the idea of being stuck in Logan without him so I made sure to do exactly what needed to be done.   Being accepted was a whole lot easier than I thought it would be.  The acceptance process consisted of going to an orientation, taking a survey online, and then -- if passing the survey, a phone interview to find out what role you would be receiving.  A few weeks after the phone interview I received my acceptance email telling me I would be working in Quick Service food and Beverage.  I would be leaving the second sunday of February until the middle of August. I would be leaving 6 weeks after Derick, which was perfect.
At the orientation.  Olivia was a recruiter for Disney.

I was a little nervous to be moving across the country all by myself, but I knew I would be alright.  My sister Jillian had decided to do the internship also and she had left a month before me since she was only doing the one until May.  She told me all the advice she could think of about transportation and what would be happening once I got where I needed to be.  I figured if Jillian could do it then I could do it.  
To say I had nothing but fun while I was there would be a lie.  I'll admit, more times than not I got so homesick to the point where i seriously considered coming home.  I even looked up plane tickets a few times.  I am glad I always talked myself out of it because once I got over the culture shock and used to working 50 hours a week I grew to love my experience there.   I worked at Columbia Harbor House which was the best location to work at.  I am not biased.  I happen to know it was a very good location to work due to being deployed to 3 different locations during my internship.  The best way to describe these other locations would be to say they were Satan's armpit.  The guests were meaner than usual (which is SO scary. Hungry guests, standing in the sun all day, spending more money than they have.. who can blame them?) I guess something about CHH lightened their moods a little, the managers seemed to not care less about the cast members, the cast members weren't as fun, and these locations were busy to the point where you felt like a chicken running around with it's head cut off.  I don't think I appreciated my job until I got deployed, though, so I am glad it happened! But 3 times?? and 3 different locations? that was a little over the top but I guess it was supposed to happen!  I loved my location.  Everyone, for the most part, got along so well and we were always laughing about something.  The building was by far the coolest out of all the restaurants in Magic Kingdom, and it wasn't near as busy as the rest.  
I was lucky enough to have 5 sane roommates. I have heard of many horror stories and I really was blessed to be roomed with the girls I was.  It took me awhile to step out of my shell and get to know them but once I got comfortable there I grew to love them, even when we did sometimes have our differences.  Living in an apartment with 6 girls we were bound to have a little "drama" as you must say, but it all made for some funny stories in the end.

Me with two of my roommates at the Mardi Gras Party

Me and Jillian weren't able to see each other too much but
the days we were able to get together until May were definitely
my favorite.

Jill came to visit me at work. Great uniform, right?

All of my roommates minus Marissa

My favorite week, by far was the week my family came down to visit.  They came down on mother's day and stayed 7 days.  I love my family!  We spent an entire week breaking ribs from laughing too hard.  We definitely played hard and didn't have a single wasted second.  I was sad to see them go especially because Jillian was going home with them.  I was suddenly all alone.  The two weeks following their visit were definitely my hardest.  I had never been so homesick in my life! 

I always got stuck sitting by a stranger. I wasn't too
thrilled.


Me, and Rach at the beach

Once again, I am so glad I decided to stick out my journey in Florida.  My sister Rachel and her husband, Derrek, came down to visit me for my birthday in June and I was convinced I was going to go back with them to live in Alabama.  Rachel talked me out of it saying I had come so far and I only had 2 months to go.  I would end up regretting it.  She was very right.  I think their visit was exactly what I needed to get back on my feet again.  I wish I had spent my entire time there the way I had spent my last 2 months.  They were so much fun.  I made more friends during those two months than I did during the first 4.  I got to know my roommates a whole lot better, and I spent more time having fun than sleeping and feeling sorry for myself.  
Derrek, Rachel, and I at Sea World on my birthday.



In June, right after Rachel and Derrek left, I met my best friend at Disney.  The answer to my prayers. His name is Brandon Morrel and he is a straight up riot!  We made the best of every day at work and made sure to always have fun.  I can't even begin to think of all of the funny inside jokes we have together.  

July went by in a blur.  I had too much fun, and not enough sleep but I loved every single second of it.  I was anxious to get back home but I am glad I can say I didn't completely take my experience for granted. Come August I had to start saying goodbye to all the friends I had made.  It was hard to do because I don't know when or if I will ever see any of them again.  Thank goodness for Facebook! 
Moving to Florida was exactly what I needed in my life.  It helped me grow in so many ways, and it definitely kept me busy for the first 8 months of Derick being gone :) 

Rosetta and Alli's 21st birthday

Brandon's goodbye note :)

Disney Graduation

Good times spent in this apartment

A small portion of my friends I made while I was there